A Year Ago

A year ago today Charlie was in a hospital bed at UCSD Med Center in Hillcrest, hooked up to tubes and breathing machines.  He was drugged, medicated, the breathing tube irritates patients' throats so they have to be sedated.  I don't know if he was aware of what was going on.  He was so far out of it.  I am real broken up, I have cried a lot, all those horrible memories coming back.  He was such a good, good, good guy, he never deserved any of it.  I loved him.  We all loved him.  He only had a couple of days left to live.